What Have I Done?

Can't believe I feel this
How it hurts inside
This pain that's everlasting
Makes me want to die

I see her in my memories
Kiss her in my dreams
But everytime I look at her
I begin to feel obscene

She controls my every thought
Controls how I feel
Makes me think that this is fake
Even though it's so real

I can't explain the way she looks
Her beauty is beyond me
But everytime I'm with her
It's like my soul is free

But I chose a different path
Made a horrid choice
Chose to just be her friend
Inside I hid my voice

Screaming at myself
What I did was wrong
Everytime I hear Blink 182
I think of her in the "Miss You" song

I can't forget what we had
The words that we said
I only wanted happiness
But now I just feel dead

Our friendship is forever
My love will never die
Even though I can't have her
I swear I won't cry